Saturday, June 2, 2012
To those who may not know I have been going through a bit of a health scare and may soon possibly need a 2nd kidney transplant the following post pertains to that possibility.
I have had a lot of time to think today. I have a lot going on in my life both good and bad. I am going through a lot with my kidney but life has given me a lot to keep me going. I lately have gotten into the habit of talking about my plans for life before starting the transplant process, and after the transplant. I have realized that I have been short changing myself this part of my life could very well take over a year. I have been unconsciously been planning to take a break from life. This would be a waste of time and my talents, to choose to do nothing in this in-between time. But I have recently gone through an amazing three weeks with an amazing group of women I have decided that life might get very hard and that yes the world may pass me by some days but I will do as much as I can while I can. This means I will be co-chairing Take Back the Night this year as scary is it might be, I will be starting a new student org on campus, and I will continue to work as long as I can, all while going to school. I might fail in keeping up an active life but at least I would have tired. I have found that if I live my passions I can get through a lot, the last three weeks have been one of the hardest things I have done physically and mentally. The week I was away my feet decided to blow up to the size of tree trunks (my circulatory system was not a fan of sitting for most of the day) I was still able to get through, because it was seriously the most amazing experience I have had. The two weeks that followed were a test of how good a student I could be on little to no sleep while dealing with uncertain health and tests (I had 9 tubes of blood taken the day before a class and I hadn’t had my shots for my red blood cells in a week). So I go forth, I have a biopsy coming up in the next two weeks and I have three weeks off, which so happens to be when I have nine doctors appts booked. So I plan on having many a lunch date, a birthday party that needs to be planned, a fabulous pool day, and a reunion to for my NEW Leadership ladies for along the way to keep my spirits up and keep my momentum going. Also if I so happen to need a transplant and can go off my meds for a small bit, no power on earth will stop me from getting a tattoo (hey you have to look at the up side). So here I go in my journey into the unknown of my possible 2nd kidney transplant.